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Every girl
I know at Duke keeps a quote book, my friend Lauren, a junior
from south of Boston, told me recently. Many girls, she said, started
in high school. Their books range in format from hastily penned scribbles
in spiral notebooks to elaborate entries in designerly cloth covers;
all contain collections of quotations. Lauren showed me hers. Not surprisingly,
her quote book is in her own image: bright, eclectic, incisive, upbeat,
witty, orderly. In it, she has transcribed quotations she's come across
in books, mostly with attributions (lots from Thoreau), but some without;
things she's heard professors say in class; comments by friends; and
copies of e-mail messages needing to be saved in some sort of permanent
fashion.
I used to work at Duke and am still part of the community. Over the
years, I've asked other kids about their quote books. Most of them say,
Oh yeah, I do keep track of quotes I like. Some of them do it in the
context of diary-like writing; others devote a separate section of their
personal journals to quotations. Women are mostly the ones who do so,
but a few guys, when pressed, also confess to collecting the words and
thoughts of others. Tim, an English major, says he does it, but it's
no big deal. He's a frat boy and doesn't tend to talk about such
things. But he does think about thema lot, and deeplyand
he acknowledges that keeping track of quotations seems to help him with
his own writing.
While it surprised me to learn about this contemporary practice, it's
not really an innovation. For centuries, young people had copy
books, in which a heading at the top of a page would be followed
by blank space for the obsessive transcription of quotations. The double
purpose was to practice handwriting and to instill moral values, or
perhaps just fear: The wages of sin is death, for example.
When it came time to put away childish things, the role of the copy
book was assumed by its close cousin, the commonplace book.
The process of maturation required the production of more-personal collections
of writings, meant to provide inspiration, direction, and moral fortitude.
Reading the commonplace books of historical figures like George Washington,
Thomas Jefferson, or any number of antebellum Southern ladies gives
us an interior view of each persons self-image and the words that
motivated him or her.
Atop todays bestseller lists sit contemporary versions of commonplace
books; we shelve them in the self-help, personal-growth sections of
bookstores. Indeed, those volumes often provide fodder for college students'
quote books.
So, from copy and commonplace books to self-help and quote books, growth
and development are what it's all about. When you watch kids progress
through their college careers, you see them morph before your very eyes,
gaining confidence and the ability to express themselves, to define
their personalities in accordance withor in opposition tothe
dominant culture, to go through the experience of seeing their families
from a distance for the first time, to grow up and out into the world.
They become both more like themselves, and more like their new friends.
And they engage actively in self-examination and the analysis of everything,
especially The Meaning of Life; they are deeply involved in The Search.
It's fun to watch these young people simultaneously seek creativity
and conformity, to yearn to be individuals who both stand out and fit
in.
The urge to be self-reflective seems to be expressed most easily by
using the words of others. Growing up is about shaking off the accents
of the familial home and learning new patterns of speech. It's about
developing your own voice, but it's hard enough to figure out what you
want to say; finding a new and insightful way to say it is a big burden.
So it appeals, this quoting, finding tidbits of truth expressed by others
more confident with language. And, at a time when life is often overwhelming,
it's reassuring to find and hold on to those sayings that provide guidance,
inspiration, or maybe just a giggle.
Even those students who do not keep track of quotations in private journals
are on the lookout for good sayings. Dorm-room doors boast white boards
with quote of the day sections; common rooms have forums
for people to write the favorite things they've heard or read; student
papers often begin with quotations. Such public quoting is different
from the interiority of private scribbling. It says something about
you, not to you. It makes a statement, and (as we all remember from
our college years) making a statement, too, is an important part of
this phase of development. See how intellectual I am? See how cynical
and worldly the inhabitants of this Nietzsche-quoting dorm are? I'm
unique! I've got a bizarro sense of humor! These public quotes are bumper
stickers for people who don't spend a lot of time in cars.
The most-public expression of self through quotation that Ive
seen is in the signature files of students e-mail messages. We
now have a generation that has grown up with e-mail; kids may send Hallmark
cards, but they rarely write real, old-fashioned letters. They send
e-mail. When their fingers dance above the computer keyboard, and they
press send, they lose the individuality of paper preferences,
the quirks of pen choice, and, of course, the distinction of handwriting.
The medium imposes a sameness on the message: No matter who sends you
an e-mail message, it looks the same when you read it. And it looks
the same no matter where you send it from. While traveling abroad, college
students no longer use the thin, pale-blue aerogrammes that my generation
sent home with stories of overseas adventures; they go to cybercafes.
Their e-mail could be coming from another country, or from the room
down the hall.
The rigidity of the e-mail format presents a bit of a problem for self-expression:
When your message looks just like everyone else's, how do you get to
be you, to make your own personal statement? How do you individuate
when you can't make a heart on the dot of your i or use
bright-blue ink in a fountain pen? The software that allows you to finish
your e-mail with a signature, which appears automatically
at the bottom of all of your outgoing messages, has been a gift from
computer geeks to college students everywhere.
Many of the students I know have such a sig file. They put
in their dorm room and phone number, maybe, or the name of their sorority
or the address of their work-study job. But they also can't resist signing
in some more personal wayoften, at the bottom of every message,
with a quotation. Sometimes the citations are funny, sometimes theyre
outrageous, but often they are little blips of inspirational light,
taken from, and out of, a broad array of contexts. Sometimes, the message
is dull and predictable; other times, it adds a layer of complexity
to understanding the sender. Of course, since the people who send me
messages tend to be very smart college kids, there's also a fair bit
of posing and posturing in the choice of quotations. It is a good waya
quick fixto personalize impersonal e-mail.
While I find the urge to collect the words and wisdom of others an understandable
way to mark one's developing selfand not a bad way to spend timeI
do have some nagging questions about all this quoting. I wonder if transcription
isn't sometimes standing in for thinking, as in the days of copy books.
Or if bite-sized bytes of pithiness are all we can attend to. I wonder
about what this means about how college students are reading. Are they
just seeking nuggets of truth, without paying heed to the context in
which they're mining? And what about attributiondo they know anything
about the writers, thinkers, artists, or activists whom they are quoting?
Do they make a distinction between characters in novels and authors?
When they see a quote that they really like, does it impel them to find
out more about the writer, to read more and more deeply, or do they
let the quote stand alone?
My friends who are professors tell me that students often try to have
quotations do the interpretative work for them, that they let replication
replace analysis, that the collective attention span of today's college
generation has shortened even more than that of the MTV-watchers of
my generation. The Internet has made it not only possible, but easy,
to search for nubbins of information. You can always go deeper (I guess
that's the idea behind hypertext), but my sense is that many people
don't; there are too many competing demands on time. We've become a
society of skimmers.
What a lot of these
kids are skimming for when they pick out meaningful quotations, it seems
to me, is The Right Answer. I am astonished by the emphasis on grades,
not only in high school, where they do in fact matter in terms of getting
admitted to college, but also on college campuses. Even students who
don't plan to apply to medical, law, or graduate school are obsessed
with G.P.A.s; they'll argue about anything less than an A-. In
class discussions, however, they are less likely to speak up, often
seeking only to note the right answers, not to ask the hard
questions. With an overload of information, perhaps the best they can
hope for is a little quotation that will serve as a synecdoche, a stand-in
for a more complex analysis.
Part of the reason that young women find quote books more appealing
than young men, I suspect, is that maturing girls must struggle harderor
at least, differentlyin their search for identity. They tend to
be more outwardly directed, looking for others to tell them who they
are, what and how they should think. Weve all heard about how
young women lose their voices in class discussions, letting the men
control the discourse. I wonder whether, in seeking to find their own
voices, even in the privacy of reading and writing, it's safer to allow
the words of others to speak for them.
Or perhaps all this quoting represents something else: not safety, but
a kind of wisdom and humility. College-age girls, I've found, are less
reluctant than their male peers to seek out mentors, whether in the
form of teachers or friends among their contemporaries or among older
women. They recognize the power of others to help them figure stuff
out, and they seek that kind of assistance. For them, quoting may be
like finding lots of mentors in likely and unlikelyplaces:
an understanding of the lack of uniqueness of the condition of growing
up. Whichever interpretation is true (and my guess is, it's a little
of both), it's definitely about growing up.
Perhaps, in a couple of centuries, historians will read Lauren's quote
book and draw a bead on life at the beginning of a new millennium. They
may have to do some digging to contextualize Bart Simpson and Leo Buscaglia,
Ani DiFranco and SARK. My guess is that it won't be immediately clear,
a couple of hundred years from now, what chicken soup has to do with
the soul. But the use of quotations will say something to posterity
about this generation of college students.
Rachel Toor, a former book editor and admissions officer at Duke
University, writes frequently for The Chronicle. Her book, Admissions
Confidential: An Insider's Account of the Elite College Selection Process,
will be published by St. Martin's Press in the fall.
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